“I am a part of all that I have met.”
— Alfred, Lord Tennyson, The Complete Poetical Works of Tennyson (via books-n-quotes)
I have been thinner than this and bigger than this. I was very unhealthy mentally when I was the thinnest. I spent days, hours, minutes obsessing over gaining weight afraid of being fat. As if the most horrid thing that could happen to my existence was to go back to being fat (as I was in highschool). I send love to the old me, I spent last night going through my blog archive and personal rants from years ago. I am so happy to be in a better space now. I am so happy that my focus now sticks to taking care of this vessel because of the function it provides that is to be able to be present in this world, voice my opinions, make a difference, learn and educate others.
My health is no more about the aesthetic. I nourish my body the best that I can and cut myself slack when I do not have the chance to eat the healthiest of the foods. All resources around me are abundant, it doesn’t matter which treasure chest I dig into to show up in this world. When I am eating unhealthy it is usually because I am balancing multiple balls in the air. Any food around me that exists is a means to an end an abundance provided to get through the tunnel.
I have strayed away from shaming or guilting myself for what I put into my body. Everything is equally sacred to me while I am involved in my life like it is a living meditation. There is nothing that is not sacred, nothing that is not divine. There is no duality that exists.
Mental health just like physical health is an ongoing maintenance process.
I once again send love to the old parts of myself who were struggling back then and lacking love for their own existence. The fact that I am here today, rebuilds my faith in my capacity to send love to myself through multiple timelines, because if I received no hope or no love back then I doubt I would have made it out. I send love to all of my existence in all of the realms that it may exist in. I send love to every wound every hurt that Eye experience in all of the dimensions that Eye exist in.
“I am a part of all that I have met.”
— Alfred, Lord Tennyson, The Complete Poetical Works of Tennyson (via books-n-quotes)
“I can’t tell you exactly what I’m looking for, but I’ll know it when it happens. I want to be breathless and weak, crumpled by the entrance of another person inside my soul.”
— Aimee Bender, The Girl in the Flammable Skirt
(via books-n-quotes)
I wish to live a life that causes my soul to dance inside my body.
When we believe the path we walk is more holy, more righteous, we negate the inherent law of divinity.
In this, we claim that our beliefs and our systems are the ‘only’ way, which is truly another form of egoic self-protection.
Some beings are here to learn by immersion into the material, the sexual, the spiritual, or even the path of sleepwalking through life.
Growth can be attained through suffering, thusly by lacking awareness of anything beyond this life and this physical form.
But each forward step into darkness, or into the light, provides an immaculate opportunity for awakening.
It is not our job to direct the will or fate of another, our work is to focus on our own. In doing so, we naturally act as a reflection of self-honouring that can, in turn, inspire others to do the same.
Attempting to drag another ‘through the mud’ and force beliefs or behaviours onto them creates further resistance.
We must let go, have faith, and see clearly that these are purely our attempts to gain control built off a perspective of fear.
Those who have integrated, or continue to integrate, the perfection of existence waste no time in fighting against what is.
This does not mean we become lazy, but rather embrace all of existence as a teacher.
If another’s behaviour or choices trigger a strong emotional response within you, see it as a golden opportunity to see clearly the reactivity of your ego.
Go inward, witness that which you reject or despise, and see that this darkness also resides within you.
For every human carries the full spectrum of love and fear, and so too we all carry innocence and destruction.
Words @heyheatherobscura of @risingwoman
It’s not what I want, it’s what I need. My life is no longer in the realm of want. I do what I have to do.
